I have a love hate relationship with the holiday season. When I was little, I loved Christmas. My parents (all 4 of them) made Christmas magical and seeped with tradition. I loved Santa and all the hype. I loved the family that I got to see, the sparkly lights and the food that I got to indulge on.
Since having my children Joe and I have merged our traditions and created new ones. Somewhere in all of this I hate everything about it. I hate feeling that I have disappointed someone for not doing something or for not have given them the perfect gift. I hate that I can NOT find the magic. You may think that I sound like a Scrooge but I'm not. I cry at the bookstore when I hear a little voice around the corner talking to their mom or dad about what Santa is going to bring them. I do feel the love of family past when I cook a secret family cookie or put an heirloom ornament on the tree. Most of what I feel is sadness.
We all suffer from depression from time to time, that is a statistic. But when you have depression you feel stifled and lonely. Outcast, secluded even when there are many, many people around you telling you that they love you.
Two things have saved my life. My family, and my yoga. The girls are my angels keeping me guessing and laughing, Joe is my rock and my savior, and Yoga is where I feel safe and accepted. I have learned over the years, to relax and not put so much pressure on myself. To really sit back and take in the moment. To enjoy the quiet of Christmas and revel in the simplicity. I KNOW that the most important part of Christmas is about being together and sharing in LOVE.
I hope that you try to enjoy being with your family and friends this holiday season. Take some moments to breathe and practice being present.
The Love It Yoga Team
Yoga teachers, dancers, waitresses, empowerers, nurses, foodies, wine lovers, everyday people.